quit being negative!

im home alone tonight and i seriously have a million things running through my mind... im seriously beng such a negative nancy tonight and i don't like it one bit. i sometimes sit back and think to myself "candyce why are you being so negative?!" i can't stand it! i dont want to be negative at all. i wish i was a better more positive person. i dont want to be a lame sauce boring negative person. i can remember when i used to be so care free and happy and i always wanted to be out doing something. i try so hard to be a good person and i always feel like i fail at that. another thing that is bugging me is that i just wish i would think before i speak... sometimes i just say things that frustrate me or annoy me and then later i think that i shouldnt have let that bother me at all and i was being a total brat by even saying that it irritated me. i feel like i just need some help. i try to do what is right and i try to help people when i can but i always seem to find myself in this rut in negativity... have i always been this negative? maybe i have and i am just now realizing it. maybe it only bugs me because i notice it now. so now that i have gotten that out there i am now making a promise to myself to try and change this rut that i am in... i am from now on going to look at that glass as half full and im going to look for the good in situations. im going to look at myself and fix me before i look at others because i dont know others situations and its not my place to think anything negative about them or their situation. im going to strive to be the best me i can be :) so please if anyone catches me being negative just stop me in my tracks and say "candyce stop being negative and judgmental!!!" thanks everyone :)

first blog :]

happy new year everyone! ok so its almost february but its my first blog of the year on my new online journal. i started this new blog because i wanted a place to put my thoughts. i am warning you though sometimes my thoughts are random and out there. this is also going to be kinda like my own little vent type of blog so beware :) haha. first of all can i just say how frustrated i was trying to put this blog together?! i spent over an hour trying to figure out how to center my title. of course when i did figure out how to do it i felt like an idiot but oh well thats kinda the story of my life. anyways lets get to it. for those of you who don't know me my name is candyce :) im 21 right now and married to an awesome guy! my life is pretty much awesome haha (ok maybe not but its still a good one)... i work a full time job as an orthodontic assistant and my husband is in college and working part time.(my turkey sandwich is falling apart and driving me nuts!!!) like i said random... anyways tonight i mostly want to get one thing off my chest. i want to apologize to all those who i have ever offended or hurt. i have been thinking a lot about some of the decisions i made in high school lately. mostly because its my brother's senior year and i have been reflecting on mine i guess. i was one of those girls who had the same serious boyfriend in high school and didnt end up with him. i think i always knew it would end up that way but i was too "comfortable" to break up with him and it ruined a lot of friendships. i guess this is where the apology comes in... i realize now that those friendships were way more important the a boyfriend. i guess that i miss having a friend that i could go to with anything. i do have my husband and my family and dont get me wrong i can talk to them about anything and they always love me. im so grateful for them but having a girl friend is different... anyways i guess thats it. i just wish that i would have been smarter in my teen years and held onto the friendships that meant more than that boyfriend. so if any of those girls read this im sorry. i know that i can never get that time back and i know that a lot of people have gone their own ways but i just hope that there are no hard feelings :) anyways now that i have that off my chest and i have blogged my first blog im going to hang out with my husband. ill post again soon :)