im home alone tonight and i seriously have a million things running through my mind... im seriously beng such a negative nancy tonight and i don't like it one bit. i sometimes sit back and think to myself "candyce why are you being so negative?!" i can't stand it! i dont want to be negative at all. i wish i was a better more positive person. i dont want to be a lame sauce boring negative person. i can remember when i used to be so care free and happy and i always wanted to be out doing something. i try so hard to be a good person and i always feel like i fail at that. another thing that is bugging me is that i just wish i would think before i speak... sometimes i just say things that frustrate me or annoy me and then later i think that i shouldnt have let that bother me at all and i was being a total brat by even saying that it irritated me. i feel like i just need some help. i try to do what is right and i try to help people when i can but i always seem to find myself in this rut in negativity... have i always been this negative? maybe i have and i am just now realizing it. maybe it only bugs me because i notice it now. so now that i have gotten that out there i am now making a promise to myself to try and change this rut that i am in... i am from now on going to look at that glass as half full and im going to look for the good in situations. im going to look at myself and fix me before i look at others because i dont know others situations and its not my place to think anything negative about them or their situation. im going to strive to be the best me i can be :) so please if anyone catches me being negative just stop me in my tracks and say "candyce stop being negative and judgmental!!!" thanks everyone :)
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